so, eventually got back to playing ff8 after general hiatus-ness and had a nice monster-killing time. Sometimes i think i only play ff8 for the few easier battle sequences... and then i remember the fmvs. and shiva. prrrr...

You know, i'd be embarrased about baring my crush on a *GF* to the world, if i had any sense. I'm quite glad i don't, really. I also blame ffx, for its oh-so-pretty-pretty video clips which have got me *hooked*.

On the topic of blame (i *like* blame) i have located helen, whose entire fault the whole rps thing is. Well, actually it's serapy's, for having a link to puppies in a box, but... mere details. I also added creed to the friends list, because i've been meaning to do so for a while and never quite got round to it. Great muse fics over there...

My mate Aphy phoned today (her journal's here but i think she's abandoned it) to groan about my general slashiness and abuse my new 'thing' for *nsync and rps, and to remind me that she's going to Japan in two days. Bitch. She's also dying her hair blonde to celebrate the occasion, which, considering that she's Chinese should... probably work, actually, because she's unnecessarily pretty. Bitch, once more. ^_^

And just in case she returns to the LJ fold: Love you really, Hime-sama... i giggled my way thru the squallypoos torture scene just for you ;)

So i'm going to sit here and *praypraypray* that she can find english sub/dub anime dvds in hong kong on her way, because then she might get me the angel sanctuary oav (or is it ova? never can tell...) and hope she had a good time because Japan *is* the promised land, isn't it?

She also told me to write fic, which is the single most effective way to send any muses i might have into hibernation. I wouldn't put it past her to know this.

Suze? I'd hug you if you weren't refusing to engage in any kind of intimacy or emotion, but as it is i'll settle for a weak supportive smile. ^_^ Enjoy your media fast - you're more man than me for being able to face doing it, hon.

In related news, I'm glad kekkai's back.

My brain hasn't worked properly all day.

Do you think this could be *claimed* to be a spiritual? It's just, otherwise it isn't quite religious, and technically i think it needs to be. I don't even know if it's actually appropriate. Bad enough that i'll be singing it solo a capella, since my brother has to go to Germany on a language course and miss the funeral...

satisfied mind

how many time have you heard someone say
'if i had money i would do things my way'?
but little they know that it's so hard to find
one rich man in ten with a satisfied mind.

money won't buy back your youth when you're old
a friend when you're lonely or peace to your soul
the wealthiest person is a pauper at times
compared to the man with a satisfied mind

when my life is over, and my time has run out
my friends and my lovers, i will leave in no doubt
that one thing's for certain, when it comes my time
i'll leave this old world with a satisfied mind
one thing's for certain, when it comes my time
i'm gonna leave this old world with a satisfied mind.

I hope it's okay. I mean, the rest of the songs i know by hard tend to be "the lady is a tramp" or "the sunny side of the street", and they're not funeral material. Whereas Satisfied Mind, that was sung at someone's memorial service by Jeff Buckley, which makes it officially a song for death. It's also one of my favourite songs. But then, I always was an odd child.